Anxiety

Today I head to SF for the week, and I’ve got such a variety of feels about it all.

It’s for work. They’re having a big event and all employees are invited to attend. There’ll be about 200 people crammed into our headquarters that typically only has a few dozen (if any).

I’m really excited to spend some time with remote work friends I’ve made, but I also have a lot of anxiety. Mostly around the fact that the large majority of these 200 attendees are flying in. They’ll be doing testing on the first day and again on Thursday. But if they picked it up during the flight travels, I’m pretty sure it won’t show up same day. I’m still recovering from having COVID over Xmas and NYE, so I’m real nervous about that. Plus, I just generally get anxiety when I’m in crowded spaces. I don’t get as much anxiety around my dietary needs, since I’ve figured out what snacks to have on me, and the hotel is only a ten minute walk from the office. So that’s nice.

I’ve done a real good job at focusing on my excitement about my new friends. There’s some truly awesomely weird folks that I work with that I am so thrilled to get to spend some time with. And we’re doing karaoke on Wed night!

But this morning, as I’m getting ready to leave in about three hours, I’m almost frozen with anxiety. But I’m just going to keep going. Keep on packing!